microsoft and nationalism

During this time of nationalism and Americans pulling together, I couldn't help but notice Microsoft's sponsorship choice for endurance racing in 2009. Yes, they are sponsoring the French automaking industry this year.

I couldn't help but notice that Sun Microsystems is sponsoring Ford.

Still no cigarettes, today is two weeks.

Hanging in there

0 Cigarettes today. I read some information at the American Cancer Association on smoking cessation. Apparently the first three days are the worst. It takes that amount of time for the nicotine to leave your system. And so during that time you are physically adjusting to having lower nicotine levels. That's why folks use the gum or other Nicotine Replacement Therapies. It allows your body to slowly adjust to lower nicotine levels while you cope with the psychological aspects of this process. This evening I was dizzy and wierd. But I'm riding it out. I hope tomorrow I don't get the heebie-jeebies too bad. If so the plan is to go for a walk.

If you're trying to quit hang in there. I quit for a year before, and it was mostly for the wrong reasons. This time is now and I'm in a different place now. I've graduated from therapy and I'm in a healthy relationship. Keep on keepin' on.

Why?

So I have been noticing, in a background noise sort of way, that cigarettes have gotten expensive. Last night I went to get some Marlboro Lights and some Diet Coke, and the cigs were $6.09 per pack. That is too stupid to be real. So if I keep doing a pack a day, a little more on Fridays, that's $200.00 per month on cigarettes. I'm not doing it. I am not spending $200 a month on cigarettes.

I'm pissed off because I didn't want to quit. I quit drinking and that was great but I wasn't ready to give up cigarettes. But I would have to be *fucking stupid* to keep smoking at $6.09 a pack. It *is* too stupid to be real, and I'm not doing it. I put the pack in the trash this morning and I have my nicotine gum with me. grr.

I know it's all for the better but I'm fucking pissed off.